Posted in Drawing, Drawings, healing, Journal, life drawing, mindful art, mindfulness, portraits, portraiture, Procreate art, self-love, Sktchy, yoga

Portraits & Botanical Drawings

I’ve been keeping-on-keeping-on with my portrait practice. Last week I hit portrait 65 of 100 of my portrait practice challenge.

I’m happy to say that my ability to see what is in front of me and draw that is improving. This means I am becoming much better at drawing portraits that have a likeness to the person and that makes me feel great. Sometimes their features are a little out of proportion like the lady above… I made her nose a little too large and had some trouble placing her eye on the far side of the three quarter view, but overall I am pretty happy with how my portrait skills are going.

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It’s a great way to spend time when I am not working (from home). My art practice is giving me space from the stresses of the world and helping me to figure out who I am and how I am seeing the world from day to day. I have noticed that if I am having an off day, emotionally-speaking, then my drawings can either save me and pull me out of that funk or they are a reflection of the inner turmoil I have been experiencing. I think that’s one of the wonderful things about art. It allows space for the mind to process what has been happening.

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A couple of weeks ago I was missing my fortnightly life drawing class so I spent a few hours reconnecting with how to see and draw the human figure with a fabulous yoga pose provided by a Sktchy muse.

The pose was quite a challenge for me to draw and I think I did a pretty good job of it, however, I can see a few errors. It’s always this way for me. I can’t see the errors at first but after a few days away from my work, I can see where I was in the process of drawing and seeing. And I can see where I have gone just a little off course.

Still I enjoyed the process of drawing that yoga pose and it inspired me to get on my own yoga mat. I’m no-where near as flexible as the lady I drew but that’s not the point. I have to keep reminding myself that yoga is about coming to the mat and working with my body where it is. Giving myself some inner love and acceptance.

What can I say… I’m a work in progress!

So this weekend I moved away from doing portraits and the human figure to embrace some nature. I came across an inspirational idea to use a thick felt tipped pen to create botanical compositions. The above drawing was completed today and I had a blast. It’s a combination of gum nuts, eucalyptus leaves and wattle.

So many hours of work but so much fun. I’m still learning where to go darker and when to hold back. But for my first botanic composition I reckon I managed to create a lovely piece of art.

I’m also embracing imperfection and messy art. I am allowed to make it my own messy creation cause when you stand back it looks great… even if its a bit of a messy-mess up close.

Yesterday, I played with the felt tipped pen in my A5 visual diary. It’s got creamy paper and is lovely to draw in. I found an image of a Protea and created this drawing, then I had to put prismacolor pencils on it to make it pop. I do love the combination of ink pen drawings with my prismacolor pencils. It’s so satisfying to see the work come to life on the page.

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And finally, last weekend, I spent a number of hours outside observing my lemon tree which I have carted around from one home to another in a pot – always whispering promises that when I finally have a home of my own I will plant it and give its root space to stretch out.

I’m still working on finding a place to call my own. The lemon tree has faith in me.

If you’re interested I did the above drawing on my iPad using procreate. I’m loving procreate and learning how to use it to capture art in a new way. There’s so much to learn.

Butterflies have been flitting around my home in abundance lately and laying their eggs on my lemon tree. It doesn’t have so many leaves now that the caterpillars have munched their way through the green leaves!

But I don’t mind. I’m sure my lemon tree isn’t too keen on being eaten like that but it will bounce back. It always does.

The act of sitting in my fold up chair and sketching my lemon tree was truly therapeutic and de-stressing.

I hope that my arty creations inspire you to take pen or pencil to paper or to try out your own creative line work on procreate too.

In this difficult times of isolation and social distancing, I think the practice of art and creative writing, journalling, singing, dancing, playing instruments – anything creative – is a soothing balm for the soul.

Happy creativity. May you draw, dance and be wild in your creative abandon. Don’t judge yourself. Just know that each attempt is a reflection of where you are at that moment in time.

I love that.

Posted in Animal Love, Drawing, Drawings, Fashion, Red Bubble, self-love

My New T-shirt from ShaplandArt Shop

I just received my new ladies fitted t-shirt from my RedBubble online shop. It’s got my ‘love bunny’ on it and I am so happy with the design and the way the print has come out on the t-shirt.

The ladies fitted t-shirt fits nicely too.

My bunny is a play on the valentine’s theme. He’s cute and giving flowers and hearts. I think this drawing is about sending myself a little bit of self-love. Self-care is a big theme for me at the moment and I’m so excited to share my art with you.

I couldn’t be happier.

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Posted in Balance, creativity, Mind-set, self-love, Social issues, spirituality, yoga

Yoga Committed

16473056_10154361371861375_2419717276492334111_nYesterday, I completed 31 days of Yoga Revolution with Adriene.

Here’s a photo of the yoga calendar and all the stars I placed on it to keep track of my growing daily yoga practice.

The last 31 days have given me strength and flexibility in my body, but more importantly this practice has given me strength, flexibility and peace in my mind and attitude. It has taught me a new vocabulary and opened the door for me to have a daily ‘conversation’ with how I am feeling and where I am at in my life.

I recommend giving 31 days of yoga a try.

Now that 31 days of yoga is finished, what do I do?

I’ve started a Yoga Committed practice where I do 28 days of yoga based on another calendar graciously provided by Adriene in her newsletter.

Today I completed Yoga Tone and because I loved Revolution so much, I did day 1 – Ease practice again. The combination was fabulous.

So I am committing to daily practice and I am looking forward to discovering what the next month will bring in body, mind, heart and soul.

I’ve read that the more mindful a person is, the more creativity flows through them. I’m experimenting with mindful practice on and off the mat and I hope to see increased levels of creativity flowing through the river in me and out into the world.

Life isn’t always easy. And in these times of egos beating one against the other on a global scale have far reaching effects with worrying repercussions, so it’s important to find what is meaningful and connect with that.

There’s so much judgement going on in the world today and as we’re all so interconnected, thanks to the immediacy of the internet, the effects are being felt more now than ever before. The nastiness is tragic really.

I think the current actions taking place in the world can become consuming of individuals as one side fights against the other.  I’m not saying that we should not embrace change or look for ways to stay safe or better ourselves as human beings or stand up for what we believe to be right and true. What I am saying, however, is that no matter how in the fray one is … the effects still ripple out and are felt beyond the source of the conflict.

So, getting into a calm and centred spot is important and I think yoga will help me as it helps so many other people in the world to find connection, peace and calmness.

I believe that power, real power, not judgemental aggression and violence, comes from a place of centred calm.

So, my goal is to connect with my inner power and stand in it. Embrace it and own it. And even when the egos of aggression and life’s painful moment attempt to cause me harm, I’ll be centred and ready to withstand the storm.

It’s nice to share with you what’s good and also what concerns me. I’m grateful I have an opportunity to share art and writing and what inspires me with you again too.

Thank you for reading my blog.

I’ve been quite … chatty.  🙂

Blessed Be.

Posted in self-love, yoga

Embracing Imperfection

It takes courage to love yourself exactly the way you are!

This week, I turned 44 years old.

I have also just finished watching a fascinating documentary called, Embrace.

The documentary gave me an opportunity to stop long enough to appreciate who I am and my body for the fantastic expression of Selina-ness that it is.  For years I hated my body, especially my pot belly and I felt a deep shame that I was not model perfect. As a result, I threw myself into exercise and flogged my body at the gym day after day.

That was about 10 years ago.

On reflection, I have to say … the mental voice inside my head did a real job on me. I heard this voice day after day that told me I had to exercise or I’d get fat and no-one would love me. It told me how disgusting I was and that if I was to be acceptable to anyone, to be loved, I had to attain physical perfection.  I chased fitness and a flat stomach with an obsession and I never told anyone of the way the voice inside my mind harmed me day in and day out.

Every time I looked in the mirror I saw ‘fat Selina’ not the woman I had shaped through regular exercise and healthy eating. I couldn’t see what I looked like and no goal was ever close enough to being good enough.

It was heart breaking to be brutally honest about it.

So then I got sick. My thyroid started to give me a message I could not ignore. I had Hashimoto’s disease and my body was no longer able to function the way it had. Every day was like walking through thick mud and my energy was extremely low. This resulted in a rather sedentary lifestyle and a shit-load of emotional self-beating for getting fat!

It got so bad that I couldn’t go into a shop and buy anything new to wear because I was putting on weight – going from a size 10 to a size 14.  Depression set in and my anxious thoughts gained momentum.

But somewhere along the way something changed inside my mind and one day-I can’t tell you exactly when-I just stopped beating myself up for being imperfect. I started to look at my imperfections as a way of showing the character I have in my body. I’m not perfect, I can’t attain perfection but I can be fit and healthy to the best of my ability, even at a size 14.

So, long story short, as they say, I went through a dark night of the soul (many times over) and faced numerous fears and learned to quiet the voice inside my head.  It’s still there but now it does not carry the authority it once did.

This year, I decided to embrace balance and self-love in a new way and I started doing daily yoga practice with Adriene from YouTube. I’ve been consistent for 25 days and I have found my body gaining strength and stability as well as flexibility. But most important – my mental and emotional self-perception is changing.

Where I would have once told myself: You’re disgusting. You’re fat. Your belly is getting in the road of doing a forward fold. You’re ugly.

I now hear: All is as it should be. You’re doing great. You’re finding peace and self-acceptance in your body and that is how it should be. You are worth it.

I also caught myself admiring my round pot belly and giving thanks for the shape of it. This is something I’ve never done before … shown gratitude for the one thing that I’ve spent most of my life hating and considering to be a barrier to receiving love.

I think yoga practice and the consistent steps I have been taking to accepting my body as it is has begun to have a very positive effect on my mental and emotional state of mind.

And watching the documentary Embrace has been another step on the journey to self-love and self-acceptance and most of all …

Embracing imperfection!

Thanks for reading my reflective blog.

Blessed Be.