Posted in Acrylics, Drawing, Mandala

My Inner Child Art Mandala

Inner Child 2012 Created: 17/2/2012 Artist: Selina Shapland
Inner Child 2012
Created: 17/2/2012
Artist: Selina Shapland

In 2012 I created the above mandala on white acid free paper and colour ink pens and some watercolour pencils.  It took hours but I did not notice the time passing as I was totally involved in the intricate detail of what I was creating.

When I was a child, I dreamed of becoming an artist and expressing my creativity.  As I grew up, I somehow began to believe that I could not draw or have my dreams fulfilled.  When I was a teenager I had an experience in art class with some young guys who said I was boring when I gave a speech about a famous artist, whom I had thoroughly enjoyed researching.

It was at that point that I decided I was not an artist and that I should give up.  I did give up art until I was 24 years old.  As I turned 25, I decided that it was time to go back to my childhood dreams and begin to make them come to fruition.  I decided that I could become an artist if that is what my heart truly desired and it did.

So, I went to the library and began to borrow books and videos created by active artists and I applied myself to learn to draw.  I read the book Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain and after a bit of encouragement from my wonderful friends who all pitched in to buy me my first acrylic paints set, I started to put brush to canvass.

As time went by, my dream of becoming a practicing artist grew inside me like a seed that had been planted in fertile soil.  I began to grow in my artistic and creative expression and even though I was not very good, I kept on trying.  I was proud of my art, even the crappy pieces because they were mine and they represented a journey of my personal and emotional creative development.

I’ve been drawing, painting and creating all sorts of fun arty-farty stuff since I was 25 and I have indulged my inner child.

Essentially, I have healed myself and nursed myself through some emotionally traumatic life experiences with the help of my art work.  I can’t not do art. It is who I am now and it is difficult to go too long without access to something that allows me to express my creativity in the world.

The Inner Child art mandala sold for $70 AUD at the Heart Art 2012 Silent Charity Auction and that money was donated to kids in need.  I am proud to that this piece of work went to someone who appreciates my work and I am grateful that I was chosen to exhibit in the show back then.  I’m not sure if the charity runs the show anymore but it was a great experience for me, especially as so many of my friends came along and supported me and the cause to.

I am a very fortunate woman and artist.

So, if you have creativity sitting inside your heart and soul, don’t hide it from the world, let it out to see the sun and the moon.  Give yourself permission to paint, draw, write, knit, sew, crochet or do whatever it is that your inner voice says is creatively right for you.

And don’t judge your work.  Allow yourself to learn with out your inner critic taking a hack and slash at attack at you.  That is for much later in the creative journey and art development.  Do not allow yourself to fall prey to the left brain’s need to categorise what you draw or create.  Just allow and you might be surprised to see the beauty that flows from your soul into the world.

What you do is needed and will be valued by people, even if those closest to you do not have the eyes to see and appreciate the precious creative gift you have given to the world.

Posted in Drawings

Transitions in love

Transitions in love Created: 26/1/2014 Artist: Selina Shapland
Transitions in love
Created: 26/1/2014
Artist: Selina Shapland

Yesterday, I had an urge to go out and buy myself a lovely big pad of paper, which I did.  I found a sharpie that I fell in love with, so that came home with me too and that was when I put pen to paper.

The above drawing created itself on the page and I have called it ‘Transitions in love’.  It represents the love that I am feeling right now in my life.  There is a simplicity and deep, indefinable beauty to what I have been experiencing since I met Dave.  He has enriched my life and I am hopeful that I am enriching his life in the best possible way too.

Love is a funny thing.  It is romantic at first but after a time, it can transition from the surface experience to something deep, profound and intense.  That is what I call ‘mature love’.  That is the kind of love that understands that we are not perfect and is forgiving.  It is an unselfish love and one that only grows deeper with the passage of the seasons.

This is the love that I want most in my life.  I do very much enjoy the honey moon stage of love and romance, but in the end, I want the love that grows with me on a daily basis.

In my experience, I have gone through a few relationships and flings, even though, during the flings I never once thought that was what was happening.  They kind of happened to me.  As I have learned life lessons about love, I have learned a great deal about who I am and how I relate to the other person and myself.  I have learned to be alone and to love myself without the ‘other’ there to provide validation.  I have learned to love the single life and now I am learning to love the couple life in a new and deeply wonderful way with the right man for me.

It took a few emotional wake up calls to bring me to understand what mature love offers and I am grateful for every single lesson, even the lessons that shattered my heart to the core.  Each time that I have shattered, I have taken time to see what I have been taught and found the kernel of opportunity to be more ready for the right man to come into my life.  In hindsight, I know that every experience I have been through has played an important and pivotal role in developing me into the person I am today.

I am glad to say that I am ready for mature and balanced love in my life now.

Love has a way of uncovering insecurities but it also has a way of reassuring us that we are valuable beyond measure.